Just because some of you asked, ... yes this is all stuff I wrote.
If any of it is really bad, it's my fault :)
1993
Penguin, oh penguin
whereforth art thou?
weeving and waving
never agreeing.
Your own indecisions
keep you from being.
You're coming,
you're going, and
always rethinking
those choices you made,
those choices you made.
love is lust gone wrong
a penguin boggled my mind
and emotions carefully bottled.
And without his wisdom teeth
this chicken's goose is cooked.
I flounder and flutter
and of tuxedo clad flightless birds drempt,
of a plane i may catch, and a catch i may lose.
For without his wisdom teeth
this chicken is caccitore, and his
penguin is naught.
96/03/26
Who did ask, and who did speak
Who did hear and who did see
Moonlight nights and snowy peaks
Who was right, and who was wrong
Who did laugh, and who took all
Killed the weak and raped the strong
No air, no sea, no earth, no key
All alone with you and me
One mind, one thought, what would we be
96/03/26
God is sleeping God is dreaming
God is speaking none is hearing
Man is killing man is sinning
Man is talking man is yelling
God is weeping
God is crying
God is hoping
God is praying
But man is breaking
and man is taking
and man is laughing
and God is dying
Could you hold me?
could you love me?
Could you be me?
Could you stand me?
Could you feed me?
Could you be me?
Would you hear me?
Would you want me?
Would you be me?
Would you take me?
Would you teach me?
Would you be me?
Green and red
Done and bled
Fall and fall
for us all
95/12/06
Nobody loves me
Nobody cares
Nobody dares
To see what's there
All that hate
and pieces of eight
And I'll say hey!
What do you think we're here to do
What do you think we're to say?
What do you think it's all about?
And life is not a game you play
And for as long as you choose to stay
You will try and you will cry
And perhaps some day you will see the way
Everybody falls everybody dies
Everybody plays a lead guitar
But you keep death on your left
And he keeps you in mind
A drip
A drop
And all's forgot
To sleep
To dream
It's all we've got
Were it not for the salmon mouse
You would be there too
Twice fallen, twice taken
Horns blow in my ears
Minced words uncloaked
Bludgeoned life
On shadowy nights full of laughter
Sisters cry for long lost brothers
Broken pipes and listless voices
Give me these and listen boys
I have seen and I have heard
The waters are breaking and God is coming
His woman is hung and he's not queazy
He's taking souls, there is no hope
Just too bad for us the living
'cause now he's past caring
Better get down and pray
And don't forget to say
That all you did was wrong
And that you're willing to pay
He's got your number and he's calling now
You're in trouble and you know it
Better go and get some now
Before you can't get any at all
My body aches and my spirit wants
Make me live, make me see
Snow white dreams and ice cream seas
Life is such that it's too much
Let me live and let me give
cry and cry and die and die
why and why am I am I
Indigo girls and rainbow swirls
Deeper thoughts and thinner cots
Feathered wings and tethered things
Sexless acts and Texas black
Why I live and why I die
Is stranger than even I
Hearts and arches bar the way
Imps and cupids led astray
Darkness never was so bright
By the side of lantern light
Mortals are meant to die
And suns are meant to glow
So why do rainbows fade
And angels never cry
There is none too bold
There is none too brave
There is none to weak
there is none too old
all that try, all that yearn
all that risk, and all that
Nothing wrong, nothing right
Why do we do what we do
When nothing matters, no one cares
if you come back you'll never stay
if you leave you'll never get there
Round and round is the way
95/05/28
Feel the rythm, feel the pain
Light the candle, burn the flame
Mark my words, see my shame
In this world, it's insane
95/05/28
Search search hide and hide
look look find and find
take take break and break
cry cry die and die
I have fallen
and I have waken
There is no doubt
That I need to shout
Take me, be me
tear me, rip me
Crush crush
it is me
Leather binds you
My love keeps you
In flame the future lies
in smoke death awaits
fear not, doubt not
Take in breathe out
There's an end to the darkness
There's a way out for me
You have seen the way
To move in a reddened flow
Yet past days still wait
For you to dream or move the stars
You're not telling me Mr. Bates
That what I did was wrong are you?
My heart was true as I did the deed
And love her I did
This is my essence
God is a scream
Feel free to please
My regards to thee
As I plunge the knife
Feel free to scream
Fight the rhino.
The one-horned beast
Is not you
I tap my fingers on the desk
As the wine whispers to me
And the crazy woman shouts
Her obscenities fill my room
And my anger hits her hard
And she shouts louder
"I don't want to live forever"
She is but a ripple
A raindrop in the storm
A stone on the mountain
And yet I know her
In a house with no roof, no walls
In a country with no grass, no trees
In a world with no eyes, no ears
No one sees my pain
No one hears my screams
In this house of fools,
this world of dreams
So there goes another piece of my story. An story running
wild. A story
without any editorial guidance, full of split-infinitves and
run-on sentences.A
story full of unbelievable characters in mundane situations. Of
plots twists so
obscure and far-fetched they're insanely believeable, and of an
author whose
penmanship is so illegible the story will never be read.
Well, I'm sure you have better things to do than to indulge
me by reading any further, so I'll interrupt this program for
an
important announcement. I'll deprive myself of any and all
selfish
emotions and gracefully exit this stage, to let some other
performer entertain you. To be an actor no more. To retire to
the
backstage, with the props and forgotten settings. A player
whose
lines have been said; memorized once and now erased from
memory
Let me fade to black gently, like in those old black and white
movies. Let me lose my voice and be like Valentino. Nobody
forgets
Valentino. All the world's a stage, and my curtain call has
come.
I bid thee farewell.....
words of plight, woven in blood
breaths of air taken in death
Let me yearn and lust for thee
as swallows fly from me
Satire abounds, voices speak
Brightness bears a worldly shadow
Perceptions altered, players appear
And time stands still for me
A crimson shroud clouds my dreams
A crescent moon is in my debt
And life stillborn starts a jig
As I wet my feet
Keep the knife sister mercy
The cello will do
A swan swings on a morning glow
A fireside story dies
for the sake of a man
for the haze of his world
Forgotten tears that I cry
Lead my shadow astray
I follow the way of Tao
In the morning when I wake
Junk noise I hear calling
As you lift the sheet from the bed
The street is wet and so are you
In envy I fly away
Shadow bright and sparrow flight
Sweet as life and hard as night
Soft as skin and sharp as lead
Beyond such mortal coils reckons a belonging
Realing form and tortured mind
Bleeding hearts and sacred cows
Butchered
Tokyo and Yoko Ono
In my riches was a rose from thee
And all I could see was me
A whole generation could not live as much
But I know if you leave me now
I will walk away from tears
And though from behind
You will be there to lead
I have not seen you whole
Climbing out of the bottle
I have not seen you whole
And still I struggle
I'm holding out
And you're giving in
Reach out and hold me near
'Cause no one else can cure my fear
For you I tremble and the branch I reach
But a final kiss and it all breaks
Where did you go and where was I
Love is joy and deepest sorrow
It is up to an individual to choose his level of enlightenment